The weather is affecting the arrival of our board of directors so we will not begin until Monday morning & attempt to cover all that is necessary. I wish I could relax. Sometimes I shrink God.
I am guilty! I do not know why? But I have shrunk God. Is it possible to become spiritually senile? What is happening to me?
I have never been a mighty man of faith. I have struggled with doubts and fear all of my Christian life. Today I was asked again for maybe the 50th time to allow someone to write our biography. I am no George Mueller or Dwight L. Moody. I fight fear daily! Everything that has happened here has been His work in spite of my doubts and fears.
The transition is the right thing to do so why do I struggle with fear? This is not my ministry. It is God’s ministry. Why am I thinking about what happens when I am no longer around to tell the story. Why do I worry that the younger generation does not feel the same way as those who began with us 27 to 20 years ago. I see that older generation standing by me so why do I doubt that the next generation will lose the vision?
I wonder if Moses struggled as I do. What about Joseph, or Daniel or Peter or Paul? Why is it that I know what God told me to do years ago and I have attemptd to obey and He has done a mighty work and yet here I am shrinking Him?
Lucy gave me a scripture this morning from Deuteronomy 31:6 “Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, He it is that doth go with thee; He will not fail thee nor forsake thee”.
I am making God Almighty smaller than my problems. Shame on me!